Hello, hallow, hola, konnichiwa, guten tag, bonjour, Ciao 👋
First of all thank you for even clicking on my post.i know this is long but please bear with me lmao. I apologize in advance if where I'm posting or the format in which I'm posting is incorrect. This is my first time EVER writing in a forum. Warning, I'm just venting and it gets a little sappy lol.
My name is Chris, I'm 31 and currently live in South Miami, FL, US.
Here I go by Lou Suffer on my main. Recently created Bronze Lou(as a bronzeman mode obvously)I stole the name from an avatar that I met back in 2005/2006(maybe) on GaiaOnline(shout out to the one who know lmao). I've since used this name, and variations of it, on many many private servers from the very original Empscape server and the original Moparscape(the original spawn server, not the to list website). I have played so many servers throughout the years that I could be completely wrong about the names of those servers, and I might be living in my own mandela effect lmao.
I have been playing osrs and private servers since 2006, and Geilenor has influenced my life in more ways than I probably even realize. I was a complete noob, and child, when Durial initiated his massacre. I remember the removal of the wildy and the addition of the GE and the absolute chaos that followed those events. My humor and demeanors grew from the varrock banks of W1,2,3. And I learned more about wealth, supply and demand, and values of rarities than I have ever learned in any classroom that I have been in, from those same degenerates lmao. Now, I know that's nothing special, and hell, anyone can just Google and claim they know. But I remember being there at that time and it was crazy for me seeing that I went from Legend of Zelda 2(the gold one) and Duck Hunter on SNES(in 2006) to an MMORPG. It was my family's first computer in 2006, and it was the first time I felt that we weren't bumfuck poor as a kid. I washed cars in my neighborhood weekly for $1 each just to give to my parents for help with the dialup and a month of membership every so often.(I know now how little I really gave them, and how much they sacrificed just to let me be happy)
NOW! after all of that, let me explain that I AM STILL A COMPLETE TOTAL NOOB. I have never even attempted a raid, I've only solo'd gwd a handful of times, and I can say that the only time I've ever even owned a slayer helmet(especially multiple variants) has been on this blessed server and only within the last few months. I have an problem with continuing things. I constantly start over and try again with every game I have ever played. (For example I have 17 farms in stardew valley and none of them are past year 5...😅
I know, I know, what a loser right? Lmao. Almost 20 years of "experience", and nothing truly to show(let's be real lol). BUT osrs and rsps's have saved my life, quite seriously, on multiple occasions. It allows an escape from the cruel reality of this purgatory called life. A little over 2 years ago I faced 2 close family deaths practically back to back, and more recently I've gone through a dramatic divorce and have had 4 SA's in the last year. (Please roast me about it, Im not looking fo pity lol). RuneScape has always been my escape, even as a child when I got bullied for being the only white family in the neighborhood. (And I have four eyes lol🤓
Lou Suffer has returned as being my main since the end of 2024 when I last got out of the hospital. And to this day, throughout all of the servers I have ever played, He is the closest to maxing I have ever been(yes He's an easy xp account lol). I only have agility and RC left. I have skotizo, jad, and zalcano pets and 3 different slayer helms. I know to most players this is trivial, but to me, after feeling like such a failure in life, to have things in my bank that I have only ever seen in YT videos really means a lot to me.
I truly want to thank the Devs, Admins, Mods, and every single player for being a part of my life and helping me in ways that, probably, most have never even considered being a thing.
On to my proposal. I want to learn. Dammit I want a scythe, and I want to earn it the hard way(Maybe 😅. I can watch all the guides, all the videos, all the tutorials for anything, but I do not understand until I physically do it. Not just in games but irl too. I've never made "online friends", I don't even have irl friends, I've always been a hermit and it's been severe the last few years. So I'm looking into maybe starting a GIM, elite XP, with anyone who's bored, or anyone who wants to learn more with me, or anyone who is like me and just wants to try being an extrovert for the first time in your life, whether a noob or a pro. ATM I don't have a computer so I'm only mobile unfortunately. So maybe we can do a mobile only gim or something dumb lol
Even in posting/typing this, the anxiety I am having to reach out to complete strangers is crippling. Tbh I've been typing this for a few weeks now but I've been too scared to post. So hmu, lmk, tell me to gfys or whatever. I'm on the discord as "rspsisdrugs". And if u even read any of this, just know that the sun will rise tomorrow, and it will be shining on you whether you want it to or not, and if you think nobody loves you, know that I do. Because you're part of my life in a weird, blissful way lol
~Lou Suffer
PS. All hail the Father of Invention, Zamorak 🔺🔻🔺
PPS. I know what it's like to feel like you're in a black hole and nothing you do can overcome the extreme feeling of dread. I am a US army vet and I am bipolar depressed. Please talk to someone if you are there in that black hole. You are not alone, and whether you believe it or not, you are loved, and you do matter. I love you as a complete stranger. I am always open to listening to anyone, about anything, without judgement. Be strong brothers and sisters of RuneScape 🥹❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
